When I look back I don't what to think "what if?"

Since it's about to be the end of the year I feel like I need to write a blog about 2014. This has probably been the most eventful and interesting year I have ever had! I have had some many ups and downs this year and made a lot of mistakes but I wouldn't change any of it because I got life lessons out of them and learned things about myself I never would have if I hadn't made the decisions I did. There were two big changes in my life that made the most impact this year which is I turned 21 and I ended a relationship of 4 years. Turning 21 has made such an impact because most of the mistakes I have made or trouble I've gotten myself into was caused by drinking or going to a bar. My grandparents seem to think I go out every night and party which is not at all accurate, I go out maybe twice every month. The reason I go to bars and drink or even go to a friends house and drink is because I like to relax and have a good time. For some reason though something always goes wrong when I try to go out and have a good time. like in Florida they kept thinking my license was fake because I apparently look like an 18 year old or recently when me and my friend went to a place called skybar and when I tried to get my card back from being on tab they claimed I had been using someones stolen card. I guess how I could solve things from going wrong would be to stop going out (My grandparents would LOVE that but it's not likely) or to take someone with us that isn't going to drink but it's really hard to find someone to tag along if they don't get to drink like everyone else. Ending my relationship with the guy I was with for four years taught me to be more independent. I never want to rely on someone as much as I relied on him because I need to be able to do stuff for myself and when you rely on someone so much and they don't come through it's so disappointing so it's just better to not rely on someone so much. It also taught me what things I am and am not looking for in a significant other and that I need to get to know them before I jump into a relationship out of loneliness or excitement. This year has been full of firsts, fears, tears, laughter, trips I'll never forget, and some nights I'll probably never remember.